this is the only page i am allowed to edit when i'm high

you must not edit anywhere else so that you don't ruin it

i think this is just a collection of thoughts, things i've seen, and things i've listened to that have stood out while i'm high.

you are the light in the daark, you are the beating of my heart BASSHUNTER!@!!!

wed 26Nov2025

i'm high and enjoying being a single messy woman. it's like i'm a movie blasting music, swaying and running my hands through my hair and messaging yummy. i feel so good, feel so dreaming and i'm living the life i wanted, i feel like i'm in the 2000s, like juicy bags, and council estate baddies, and glitter lipgloss. like spritualy a sassy sillouhette listening to an ipod

i also feel abit bunny mona awad

it feels glossy and dreamy and angelic and like it has a secret

i feel sexy and divine

i can romanticise the messy, the common, the working clas,, the crumbs of my life are sexy connects me to all who came before me

thu 27Nov2025

i should really at least get some tinsel to put on my monitor. i'll be sad if i don't experience some festive spirit.

just did a tarot reading and the card that really jumped out was the devil.

i'm starting to get a bit bored, like i would be if i sober

how do you love someone without getting hurt? how do you love someone without crawling in dirt?

tues 2dec2025

after a night shift: go become one with your duvet, babe. You earned oblivion.

tues9dec2025

as dr butch said: sometimes you heal by putting insane shit on the internet (or something like that)

dr, tonight i am in the stardust bevause i felt queer guilt after not wanting you in the same way i want them. she bought me a tiny tarot deck. there is something very wrong with me. i should remove the llink to this page on the site (sober edit 29dec2025: i hid it. well done if you found it!)

weds 24dec2025

sent to yummy: i feel like briget jones right now. the opening scene to my romcom would be me, alone on christmas eve, high as the moon, fairy lights twinkling in the background while i tweak my website and bop to xmas music

this is an important moment in life to make a future moment in life a sweeter victory.

i have 2.5 secure attachments: yummy, poppy and (mostly) the other half of my coven.